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Dreaming Myself Awake

by Michael Van

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1.
Let the Music Take You Home ©2009 Michael VanArsdale Take the road to the river, you don't have to turn around Turn your back to the city, put your feet to the ground when you hear that whistle blow and you know it's time to go when the mountains sing that lonesome song, just let the music take you home. Look for an answer in your money, try to find meaning in her eyes. Get them all to call you honey, try to be last one to die If you hear that fiddle call, you to that Shenandoah Valley waltz If the thrill is really gone, just let the music take you home, Oh, get back to Georgia, Oh, take back your soul Oh, sing it like you mean it, Oh, let music roll Take that last train to the southland or just let the music take you Home.
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ACROSS THE UNIVERSE- The Beatles Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass, they slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow, waves of joy are drifting through my opened mind Possessing and caressing me Jai Guru Deva Om Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Nothing's gonna change my world Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes They call me on and on across the universe Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letterbox They tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe Sounds of laughter, shades of earth are ringing through my opened ears Inciting and inviting me Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns And calls me on and on across the universe
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Big Red Sun 05:16
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99 Percent False Identity Michael VanArsdale 1999 My life is mostly spent recovering from accidents In spite of all my good intents, sincerity turns to pretense To find a face in a crowd, a drop of water in a cloud Only occasionally is the real me allowed to see Where in the forest was the tree, whatever happen to the best of me Where is the pearl in all this sea, seems like 99 percent false identity No one seemed to notice that I’ve been taken over by some alien Do they really think I act like this all the time I think it all got started when I began to pretend that I was so much bigger than my self In the land that I’m from they teach you haw to be a son But when it’s all been done no one knows what you’ve become Is the sky black or light blue, am I false or untrue Now that I’m coming through, don’t want to be like you I’m looking for that one good try, before I’m on my back and looking at the sky Who was I trying so hard to be, looks like 99 percent false identity Where is the forest was the tree, whatever happen to the best of me Where is the pearl in all this sea, seems like 99 percent false identity 99 percent false identity
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No Chance of Rain ©Michael VanArsdale 61 degrees and warming all through the day No chance of rain, for the bay No chance of rain,no chance of anything Unpleasant about, a gentle wind from the south And a cumulus cloud or two Sun rising in the east and wondering across the blue No chance to hide his face from you No chance of rain, no chance of feeling pain the gray skies are gone and the winter is done feel the love a shinning up through well I don't have much to say (everybody just keeps on talking anyway) I'm just grateful for this day (just might get down on my knees and pray) If the sun will shine for me (let it shine, let it shine) I will try my best to be here before it leaves 61 degrees and warming all through the day No chance of rain, for the bay
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Sly Man’s Pill ©1997 Michael VanArsdale So you say you’re gonna change your mind I’m not gona make the same mistakes or commit the same old crime Well I’m never gona waste my time, I’m never gona be so blind I’m never gona fall for a woman that makes me feel this way again I’m gona get in shape, I’m never gona hesitate My New Years resolution is to complete my evolution. To see myself as I am, to see the world as it is I wonder if I ever will, take that sly mans pill. Yes, I wonder if I ever will Imagine that, even though I changed my mind It seems I make the some mistake and commit the same old crimes Well I’m just wasting time, I’ve never felt so blind I keep having these same old feelings again and again. Where do I stop this train, all the scenery looks the same I feel like I’ve been here before, but I don’t what to come back no more
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New Horizon 04:30
New Horizon 4/13/1991 ©1991 Michael VanArsdale Wake me up tomorrow morning and point me to the sunrise You know I got to get going if I'm gona make it before I die Even though I love you, I can hear those old whinning wheels a callin Let be take one more trip beyond that New horizon. People ask me what are you looking for I will know it when I find it Can't sit around and wait for love to come to my door But I believe I see it shinning Somewhere out there, beyond that new horizon Some people say they'll live forever but I see myself just running out of time They like to think they're better, but just like me they're blind Darkness and confusion are waiting for me, When I close my eyes but I might see a little light shinning beyond that new horizon Hey brother can you spare a dime have you got the time to take me on my way to find, peace of mind I know if I just keep moving I'm bound to find, The end of this long road of tears, it's been so many years
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Everybody but you © Michael VanArsdale Everybody’s got a radio station; everybody’s got a TV show Everybody’s got a song to sing, everybody’s got something they know is true Everybody but you, everybody but you, knows just what to do Everybody knows what it’s about but, you’re still holding out What all the other people despise, you think it could be otherwise Than what they do, everybody but you everybody but you, everybody but you everybody but you, knows just what to do Even when you try to step in line, you’re still dancing to three quarter time They all seem to be marching in a que What’s the matter don’t you hear the drum, don’t be marching to a different one We all know just what you should do, everybody but you everybody but you, everybody but you everybody but you, knows just what to do I’ve been looking round and I just don’t see Anybody here that I want to be
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Just a radio 03:27
Just a Radio © 2000 Michael VanArsdale I had something to say, but I've been singing around it I had something to say, just on the tip of my tongue, but when I look it is gone and the signal comes in late at night, static and voices from a far away site. I had something to say, and this time I'm just gona shout something I had something to say, maybe I'll just start singing and see what happens right here and now Do you know how it feels to wear this thorny antenna crown . I'm just a Radio, tuned in to where I don't know Playing songs made of static and snow, I'm just a radio. Don't try to change the station, I've only got one and it's always on I've got to tell what I know, even without proof to show, I'm just a radio, receiving on mystic channel 22, I'm getting secret codes in foreign tongues, I hear something but it doesn't come I got something to say, but it's not too clear and not too precise, dream remembered and fading in light, I've got something before I quit. It's not what you say but how you say it.
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Wanderer 04:11
I have been a Wanderer © Michael VanArsdale 1978 I have been a Wanderer, I've wandered across the land I have been a Wanderer, I lost my true loves hand She did not understand Wanderer, Oh Wanderer, you wander much too far Wanderer, Oh Wanderer, wander to my arms I have been a sailing man, I've sailed across the sea I have been a sailing man, but my baby don't love me she said it could not be I have been a fighting man, fighting for the right I have been a fighting man, I won my true loves hand now I never leave her sight
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Rage against the night Michael VanArsdale ©2001 I guess you think it’s hard, like having some disease But it don’t feel much like freedom when you’re down on your knees And the souls of dead men haunt me and the angels call my name But the gods of distant longing still hold me to my aim Rage against the night, still crawling toward the light But thick as mud the sleep of dead men hold my feet from flight I guess you think it’s lonely, nobody hears your song But you’re not the only one working in the dark The hip hop high heeled hardened hearts They don’t give you a chance before you start The jaded teeners with their thornless crowns, Noses up and minds locked down, dismiss your ageing frown Rage against the night, still crawling toward the light But thick as mud the sleep of dead men hold my feet from flight (Don’t sleep tight, don’t go down into that good night Thick as mud, thick as mud)
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Dreaming Myself Awake ©Michael VanArsdale 2003 You know I’ve been cultivating a sense of detachment for some time And it’s gotten to the point where it all seemed kinda fine But then I loose myself in trying some self important scheme When I try too hard to do some good and wind up feeling mean I’ve been a saint; I’ve been a free wheeling spiritual being Flying in the clouds with angels all around I’ve been a saint; I’ve been unfettered by the cares of ordinary men But every now and then, it all seems like a big mistake And I’ve been dreaming myself awake Well I used to look for reasons, now I just take things as they fall When life starts looking gloomy I don’t fuss and fret at all But if I let some evil thought come festering around I loose my equanimity and come crashing to the ground Well I don’t know in my life, if I’ve ever been that good But sometimes I’d like to get beyond those should haves if I could And take care of those little things that fall into my hand Stop thinking I’m so special and be an ordinary man I've been dreaming of awakening and I've been awakening to the dreaming cause I've been Dreaming, Dreaming myself Awake
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I'm Not Dead 04:05
I’m Not Dead ©Michael VanArsdale 1997 I’m sorry what did you day I’m drifting in and out again Your lips are moving but my eyes are glazing. What is the meaning of that pattern on the wall, must be Chinese or something Fascinating imaginating has taken me away But I’m not dead, I’m just sleeping I’m not dead, don’t throw me away I’m not dead, I’m still breathing I’m not dead, I’m just sleeping I love you when I remember to remember you Remind me please to remember me when I forget to be. Don’t walk away, walk away, walk away, when you can’t take it anymore Maybe I need a little mouth to mouth or pumping of my heart Something is nagging, back of my mind. Something forgotten, I’ve got to find. Wait for me here I’ll return to you in just a while All of the signs leading me back to your smile.

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The songs on this album are mostly a record of insights on the journey of awakening, but there are no hypnotic mantras or gentle bells to calm your fears and melt your stress away.
No, the self truths I have seen are shocking and each one represents a little destruction of the ego. And so these songs are delivered with the raw twang and directness of an old country song, steeped in the Americana tradition, for my path is an American path. My meditation like the meditation of an old cowboy riding the trail alone for too many years who has seen that all words are lies and now has nothing left to say. But he might still play song by the old campfire.

credits

released September 23, 2013

Special Thanks to Larry Lawson my favorite old cowboy and a positive creative force on this album and in the universe. Thanks to all who contributed their time and energy to this project and made this a rewarding adventure, in particular: The Movers: Alan Bond, Kit Eakle, Sean Caffey and Mark Cheley. Special guest: Bruce Kaplan from the Folk Unlimited Orchestra, Rick Ward, Noah Duvernell, and Sara Remington.

Michael Van: Lead Vocals, Acoustic Guitar, Piano, Organ, Harmonica,Tele on (#1, #3, #12), Bass Guitar (#11, #13), Drum programing, (#2, 4, 5, 6, 7, 10, 12)
michaelvanband@gmail.com
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Copyright ©2012 Michael VanArsdale
Arranged, Produced, Recorded and Mixed by
Michael Van. Mastered by Jethro Dehart.

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Michael Van San Francisco, California

Michael Van comes from Georgia and dishes up the twang with a bit of deep introspection, exploring the lines between love and fear, self and no self, and the plain truth of reality. Alan Bond (of Dark Hollow) brings his famous mandolin leads and strong vocal harmony to the mix, while local legend Larry Lawson (from Blue Lizard) holds the bottom. Together they form the Movers. ... more

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